When did I become an Aging Avatar??

Hello my sparkly friends!

So I was on this website the other day where you create avatars of yourself and friends. It was most certainly fun to do, but it was also kind of a bummer.

As I was doing my face, I had to choose of course my eye shape and color, face shape etc.- but then it got to adding

~~age lines~~ character details and I wasn't so very happy. lol

I know it shouldn't bother me and I am perfectly happy with me...but to be honest really deep down it does bother me.

My face is telling me "Hey Tobester, you are human. You are over the half way mark babe- you have lived more years than you have left... " you know the drill.

I read about women who love this phase of life- I wish I could feel as enthusiastic as they do. Don't get me wrong- I have so much I am thankful for and am blessed in so many ways.

I just want my mind to stop dwelling... I thank God that I don't have unlimited financial resources so i don't have to worry about being one of those plastic surgery over-doers.

I do find myself daydreaming just a little after the Lifestyle Lift commercial comes on though...

LOL

I really want those stupid wrinkles and my silly jawline not to matter in my head.

Doing the avatar thingy has me feeling a bit more comfortable with my "changes", and it is actually fun to put myself in cartoons with my family and

see what

a unique "goof"

I can be.